Half full or half empty?

  My daughter asked me an interesting question the other day. “Is your glass half full or half empty mum?”. I thought about this and started reflecting on my life. Do I think that I’ve been dealt some unlucky cards? Well yes if I consider that not long after I separated from my daughter’s father[…]

12 Months

12 Months… Today sees the 12 month anniversary of my dates with Dai #dialysis shocking where the times goes but also the longest 12 months ever! If I’m really honest..the hardest 12 months that only 2 people really understand..Lee and myself. Putting a few things down in print..maybe to share my experiences/thoughts with others going[…]

What’s happening?

Hello hello, haven’t been here for a while.. Whats happening?..well dialysis is still a struggle (nothing new there!) no two days are ever the same. If an ‘ok day’ could be had two days on the trot, I’d be laughing! Plummeting Bp and flaking out..yay go me! 🙁 Anyone else encounter that!? Wobbly legs after[…]

The Ticking Clock of Routine and Twitter Friends

The weekend didn’t get off to a good start so it shouldn’t have come as a surprise that by Sunday afternoon my mood was heading steadily downwards. We were supposed to be travelling to the north-east to visit my step mother-in-law in her care home but the snow that greeted us on Saturday morning put[…]

Pause For Thought

I’ve always been one for reflecting on events in my life, thankfully these days I manage to avoid the negative, confidence sapping reflection that fuelled my period of deep depression. Nowadays I look for the postive things in my life and celebrate even the minor achievements no matter how insignificant. Until last week I counted[…]

ALL THE KING’S HORSES AND ALL THE KING’S MEN…..

So I started dialysis last week Tuesday… What a nerve racking period it was, pre-dialysis. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t stop thinking about what could go wrong..infections, the tube not working, pulling it out of my body by mistake etc; above all the fact that this is my life now. I would no longer be[…]

Salford Royal Foundation Trust

Good morning people! Hope everyone has had a top start to the New Year. I signed up for a voluntary job at Salford Royal Foundation Trust yesterday. As far as I’m aware, I’ll be working in and around renal patients who have ‘crash landed’ with kidney failure and giving them a heads up on what[…]

My first dialysis session, my last dialysis session

The build up to my first dialysis session was very short and intense. While I’d attended all of the outpatient clinics to have my kidney function assessed throughout the previous ten years, I had made no attempt to accept and understand my condition and hadn’t thought through the dialysis options but decided on home haemodialysis.[…]